i am confuse

oke. i dont know where should i start. 

err. forget it. my brain doesn't work properly lately. i guess i juz need to jump into the main point here.

lately, i always find myself really hard in producing or generating ideas.

even if i were asked to write a simple essay or just a paragraph about my OWN family, i would finally found myself in confusion, ambiguity, which is a state where my brain can't even highlight a single point to be paste onto a piece of paper..

i don't really read and write.. and the ideas or points are likely to be running away from me..

they scattered over my mind in the most complex way, hard form me to explain..

i found myself on the highest peak of difficulty in choosing words,, like a huge black brick wall blocking my way to victory. when i was about to reach there, i came out with such ideas confuse enough for me to stop writing..and thinking. and the ideas fly.. miles away from me. lost. it is time for me to change. and get myself occupied with knowledge. it is time to read and write MORE.. 

and this is why i'm here..

come back from the oldish. i want to change. i need to change.

let's start it with this little piece of writings.

p/s: saya dalam proses meningkatkan prestasi penulisan saya. maafkan kesalahan tatabahasa saya. =)